love afar

God, WHY do I always like girls who are beyond reach?

Urghh...

Ouch..

Am I in such a sorry state,
That a 17 year old girl,
Would consider me old,
And needs to be saved,
By taking the initiative,
Joining the ranks of aunties,
To match-make me,
With my new housemate,
Or any lady she could see?

Oh,
Are you beyond hope?
Or bound to eternal single-hood?
Is what she wondered aloud.

Dear me,
Am I really,
Really in such a sorry state?

Nightmare

What a nightmare!

I dreamt about her,

The second time since I got here.

It wasn't the type in which I woke up in sweat,

But it is the one filled with the feeling of dread.

In my dream I saw her,

Walking in a dodgy area,

Not somewhere secluded and dark,

But like Genting Highlands theme park.

Holding hands with joy,

It seems like she has a boy.

Everywhere they went,

I followed as close as I can.

Twist and turn in the crowd,

I lost them in the cloud.

High and low I search for her,

For she is someone I hold dear.

In the end I sat in despair,

Because she is not to be found anywhere.

Is this a sign I ponder,

That I lose to someone younger?

That boy is just 12 years old,

Or so I was told.

In my dream I am a loser,

What bummer.

It will be all right. There is Easter bunny and chocolate eggs to munch on. Yumm...

Wooot!! Since 28th Jan. That is bad.

But that is because this dude is saddened by the feeling of being annoyed at the confusion of getting mad from being distressed of not overcoming jealousy of a friend's happiness.

Nah, he is just confused.

On other note: by God's grace and mercy, June has recovered from dengue. And thanks to insurance, her medical bill is on RM 65 *ching ching* after 6 days in the hospital. This is a warning to all. Stay away from mosquitoes. They are bad stuff which makes you like flies more.

Cheers!

Sold

She smiled,
We talked,
For a while,
Now I am sold,
Does she know?

She?

She is Hot, but Honourable
She is Intelligent, and very Impressive
She is Caring, absolutely Considerate
She is Witty, and totally Wonderful

Sigh... problems I create for myself.

Finals

Woah... third week of final semester! So fast.

Not good. I feel too relaxed for it to be my final semester. With only classes three times a week and Saturday and Sunday also somewhat busy, I have quite a lot of time on my hand. This entry is a proof of it.

I can go on ranting about I should be a good boy and save Malaysia from incompetent people, or the world is being unfair, or we as Christians have been so selfish or mean to each other, or how some people are so nice to me when I don't deserve it, or wonder what should the next step be for being a Church of a living God.

But my heart goes out to this Aussie dame from Ipoh. I knew her from my previous college, separated since graduation, stumbled upon her blog and have been following ever since (like checking in once every quarterly). Always known her as someone friendly and a little bit cool. Loneliness and waiting patiently seems like a horrible combination. Hmmm...

*sigh

Press on, girl. DON'T GIVE UP!

Yeah, sounds like it is for me too..

Time

Lots, I have. But my brain can't function after lunch. I am slowly regaining the use of my brain. Disjointed eh?

I have been visiting this blog on and off since last year. And every time I went back there she writes something which I would go "wow, my brain never thought of it that way before." I am always tempted to leave a comment but somehow I could never think of anything intelligent. Sad huh?

This blog entry of hers just really set it off. It was about how she became a Christian. And somehow that warrant a respond from a Catholic.

I do not know man, I thought being a Christian is all about knowing the true Loving God and how Christ redeemed us by His blood. And all we have to do is live a life of blessing and being an ambassador to Christ's kingdom.

If going to heaven to be with God needs one to sit an entrance exam of theology and Sainthood, I would be packing my bag for hell already.

Of course, Jesus would have helped me through the test, that hell thing won't happen and we will live happily ever after. Correct me if I am wrong. I need to know God first and foremost. Theology can come later to explain God's reasoning.

Now, my brain has functioned beyond capacity. Time to shut down and read more things. Cheers!

Interesting sight of the day: Man adds tau youw / pak yauw / light sauce, lots and lots, into maggie mee soup.

Silence

Amongst the cries of many well wishers, her silence was deafening...

sigh...

Four girls and one Guy

Girl 1: We were standing at the door late at night. We just reached her house after dinner and she was about to enter. We looked at each other and said good bye. Deep within, I had so much to say but it would not come out. All I wanted was to give her a hug and hope that things would turn out fine no matter what. And sillily, we said good bye again, and ackwardly I left through the gate, leaving a good friend once again as she enters her house..

Girl 2: I quickly drove to the front of the gate only to realise that she was leaving the house with her luggage. I thought I was just in time. I quickly parked and ran towards the car she was getting onto. As I was running, I was said, God give me the chance to pray for her. But when I reached, I only managed to give her a hug, and then she had to go. The driver drove down the road with her inside, turned at the junction and out of sight..

Girl 3: She was waiting at the door as her parents continued talking. I spent the next 20 minutes trying to muster some courage to walk up to her to say hello. I walked towards her with all my boldness only to chicken out by talking to her dad. Seeing that I still have a chance to talk to her, I turned away the opposite direction. And from afar, she stood on for a few more minutes before leaving walking through the door with her parents..

Girl 4: It was nearing the end and she was talking to her friend. I went up next to her and gave her a side hug like what her friend was doing to her and joined on to their conversation, hoping that I would be able to hug her and thank her for being there for us all the time when we are left alone after. Her friend soon left and another friend came along and started another conversation. Just as it was about to come to a turning point, a little boy came an embraced her and started crying. Knowing that this was an urgent matter, she took him by his hand and lead him off to a distant place..

Guy: He was like a silent yet strong father to me although I still do not understand the value of the relationship we have. He stood by me, guiding and supporting me even when I was tired and frustrated. He calmed me and encouraged me and even gave me unimaginable strength to work things out. Time and time again, He got me out of trouble just at the right moment and even giving me unimaginable confidence. Crazy as it may seems, but I doubt His help all the time even when I have been proven wrong again and again. The amazing thing is, He never left once.


In all these, no-one is to be blamed. I guess. I just have to work on my timing. And hopefully, He will guide me through.

p.s. Thanks Su, your gift on Sunday morning was amazing =)