- There are two parking fines I am dealing with one of them threatening a court case if I don't pay up soon
- there is a streamyx bill totalling more than RM 900 under my name because I did not cancel the account almost a year ago when it was giving me so much trouble.
- my scholarship is at threat if I do not get at least 2.85 an above this term because I did not meet the mark required last term
- there are a lot of things not settled for my part in an event I am involved with, and my "boss" is chasing me.
The fact that I could not stick to one kind of fasting makes me feel bad too. Now that I am on holiday, I am rather demotivated. What more when I go back to college with so much trouble in hand (in two weeks time).
There are happy times, short happy times. Especially when I am praising God. But mostly I am feeling a little crappy because of all the mess I made. All the other time I spend praying, asking God to give me strenght and not bless me specifically. And yet I have little faith. I fear that I would be dissapointed. What am I to do?
I want to tell someone about all my troubles and yet I can't find a suitable "victim". Some victims know some part of the story. The rest are all hidden within my heart, in which only God knows.
God is not a victim, not at all... eheheh... He has been faithful and forgiving and helpful. But, I felt like I have dissapointed Him so many times. At the moment, I just need someone who walk with me through all my problems. Some one I could be accountable to. Some one who would minister to me. Some one to hold me in the hand and lead me.
Hmmm... God... help... please...
5 comments:
hey... I didn't know u were under THAT kinda stress too... Sounds extremely bad. I'll try and remember to keep u in my prayers.
*hugs*
I think the one I would most likely want to kick ur butt for would be the streamyx bill because I specifically bugged you about it back then to call them and cancel it. That amount is serious ^@#$%. *sigh* The others sound quite bad too... but like I said, I'll pray for u. You hang in there! God always delivers..
Btw, if u need help paying for the bill first, just let me know.
Hey sorry to hear all that stress, you sure are strong in public.. hehe.. is there anything I can do to help?
By the way, I really like your blog and your photography skills are super! ;)
hmm, thanks. well, it is my fault i admit. but I thought that pa was handling it ;P
I thought. hahahha..
thanks for offering to help both of you. by God's grace :)
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